If you follow me on Twitter (and LORD do I feel bad for you if you do, because I suck lately) you’ve seen:
a. how absent I’ve been
b. how unhappy I am
I’m doing all I can to fix both and honestly, I’m on the verge of doing something stupid, smart or in between. I know I can’t linger anymore in a state where I don’t eat, cry nearly all the time and take more anti-anxiety meds than I know what to do with.
I’m scared and feel like all I’ve done the last 7 years of my life is go from mistake to mistake. Like I’ve never made good choices and the ones I think are good choices end up not to be. Like things that I think are good never stay and after they’ve gone, they still don’t look as bad as they should.
(((( h u g s ))))) without knowing you in a non virtual space i don’t what you are dealing with.
BUT that won’t stop me from recommending some new age wisdom:
1) try this: http://tinyurl.com/cxz6tez
2) read this: the book on the taboo against knowing who you are by alan watts http://tinyurl.com/bnyt5gc
3) know this: “The universe is change; our life is what our thoughts make it.” Marcus Aurelius Antoninus
love to you DJ xoxo col & rufus
I love you Col…I’ll take a look. Willing to try almost anything these days.
xoxox
*Blush*… I have been miserably absent, too, my friend. I’m sorry. And I’m sorry to hear you’re in a state of…well, unstateliness. How can I help? What can I do? I’ve read several good books lately. Maybe an immersion in words and other worlds and unexpected perspectives and stories will provide a bit of solace, or distraction, or inspiration, or some wonderful combination of all three and more?
Much love, tight hugs, remember: strong, brave, and true.
Your neuroses are not at all cute.
You’re the only one who doesn’t think so.